Odell Edwards sat in a corner of the bleachers away from the other parents. He didnât want to be a distraction.
He knew that if they spotted him, they would walk over solemnly, offer hugs, prayers, or recall his youngest sonâs smile and athleticism. So he sat alone.
As Edwards scanned the brightly lit turf where the Mesquite High School football team would play their season opener, he paused to look at the new decal on the back of each playerâs maroon helmet, white circles with two maroon letters: âJE.â
For his 15-year-old son, Jordan Edwards.
âEvery day I think about him being gone way too soon,â Edwards said. âIt would have been nice to see him out there on the field one more time.â
Jordan died in April when a police officer fired on a car filled with black teenagers as it pulled away from a house party. It was another case of an unarmed African American killed by a white officer. In Mesquite and other suburbs east of Dallas, the reactions echoed those after similar shootings elsewhere â anger, disbelief, resignation.
On the Mesquite football team â the Skeeters â coaches have become grief counselors of sorts. They try to honor Jordanâs memory while urging their players to focus on the future, both as athletes and young men. Since the shooting, Jordanâs teammates have become more wary. At least one turned to prayer.
Although a Dallas County grand jury indicted the officer on a murder charge â rare for a police shooting in Texas â the Edwards family knows history. They know an indictment is one thing, a conviction is another. In recent months, police from Ohio to Oklahoma have been acquitted in shootings of unarmed black men and children. The last time an on-duty police officer in Dallas County was convicted of murder was in 1973.
But people here have found a way to make it not matter so much what happens in the courtroom. The officerâs fate is not in their hands. They turn to the Skeetersâ team motto, the things that have always gotten them through: Faith. Family. Football.
Like most Saturdays, April 29 was chore day in the Edwards home, a two-story brick house with a neat lawn in a subdivision dotted with cul-de-sacs.
Jordan and his older brothers â Kevon and Vidal, both 17 â cleaned their bedrooms and vacuumed the house. That evening, the boys asked if they could go to a party three miles away in neighboring Balch Springs. Their father agreed, but told them to be home by midnight.
âIt was a great day,â Edwards said, smiling as he reminisced. âWe were all together.â
The boys got to the party about 10 p.m., and already teenagers were dancing to the latest hip-hop hits and bragging about plans for the summer. Within an hour, Balch Springs Police Officer Roy Oliver and his partner showed up, responding to a noise complaint. While inside the house breaking up the party, Oliver â a six-year veteran of the department â heard what sounded like gunshots coming from outside. He hurried out to his patrol car and grabbed an MC5 rifle.
Outside, the Edwards boys had hopped into Vidalâs black Chevy Impala. Jordan picked the front passenger seat. The car pulled away from the curb, and whether the boys heard an order to stop is unclear. Oliver raised his rifle and started shooting. A bullet tore through Jordanâs head. The other boys, uninjured, stared at the pooling blood.
Police spokesmen initially said the vehicle had backed up toward Oliver âin an aggressive manner,â but later they backtracked and reported that body camera video showed the Impala was driving away from the officers. The gunshots officers had heard were real, but had come from a parking lot a block away.
Days later, Oliver, 38, whose attorney did not respond to a request for comment, was fired. He was indicted for first-degree murder in July, and the Edwards family has filed an excessive-force lawsuit against him.
âHe robbed Jordanâs life,â said Charmaine Edwards, Jordanâs mother. âThatâs all there is to it.â
One evening, Charmaine, with tears rolling down her cheeks, sat at the familyâs kitchen table â a spot of many memories: Jordan scarfing down chicken alfredo, joking with his brothers and 5-year-old sister, Korrie, talking about the driving lessons he was scheduled to start in August.
Jordanâs upstairs bedroom looks almost exactly as it did that day in April: a stool in front of the television where he played âNBA 2Kâ; his favorite red-and-black gym shorts balled up on the floor; his pet iguana, Roxie, lying in her glass cage near his bed.
âKids go to parties all the time and come home,â Charmaine said, pausing for a moment. âNot mine.â
Jeff Fleener, the first-year head football coach at Mesquite, had known Jordan only for a few months, but the boy teammates and coaches called âJ-Bird,â âJ-Moneyâ and âSmileyâ already had left an impression. He was tall and lanky and would likely â as a sophomore this school year â have played some varsity.
The first spring practice, which had been scheduled for the Monday after the shooting, was canceled. When Odell and Charmaine arrived at the school that day, the players lined up to offer condolences.
âThey all just waited and waited and waited to just have the chance to walk up and give his dad a hug, to give his mom a hug, to give his brother a hug,â Fleener said. âGuys were tore up and still are tore up.â
Small memorials dot the teamâs locker room. âLong live #11â appears in fading marker on whiteboards and doors. Jordanâs locker sits untouched, except for little âRIPâ notes placed around his size 10½ Adidas.
JaâDarion Smith, 15, said he found himself praying in the days after Jordanâs death and hasnât been able to stop: before bed each night, as he walks the hallways in between classes, on the football field, looking across the line of scrimmage to where Jordan used to stand as a safety â smiling, laughing and ready to offer a tap on top of the helmet after a play.
A lot of the time itâs not God heâs talking to, JaâDarion admits. Itâs Jordan.
âIt gives me peace a little bit; praying helps me cope,â JaâDarion said as he walked off the practice field a few days before the season opener. âI just tell him I love him.â
Nearby, Jaxon Turner, 16, sipped purple Gatorade and wiped the sweat dripping down his face in the muggy afternoon air. Jordanâs death, he said, made him more cautious. He hasnât gone to a house party since the shooting.
âEven if youâre aware of your surroundings, like Jordan was, it still might not matter, which is sad,â Jaxon added. âHe was a good kid who was going to be a good man.â
To Vidal, thatâs one of the most frustrating things â knowing how diligent his little brother was.
âHe excelled at everything â school, football, you name it,â said Vidal, whose last image of his brother was as he slowly slumped down beside him in the car that night.
Boxing was always Vidalâs sport. This season heâs playing football. Heâs wearing No. 11.
Hours before kickoff of the season opener, Fleener gathered the team in the schoolâs musty wrestling room. He held up three sheets of the glossy âJEâ decals.
âAs you put these on your helmets, this is his opportunity to play for the Skeeters,â Fleener said, his voice raspy. âWhen you put that on there, and you put that helmet on, youâre carrying him with you into every snap that youâre in that game.â
JaâDarion peeled off a decal and gripped his helmet, pasting the initials on the back with intense concentration.
âWhen we tell you to put that helmet to work, just think youâre going to have that little extra hit, because youâre going to have Jordan on there right behind you,â Fleener continued.
âJust make sure you take the time to think about that, and how important that is to you and how important he is to us â everybody understand that?â
Some nodded. Some tilted their heads toward the ceiling, as if looking for a glimpse of Jordan in the fluorescent lights.
As each player filed out of the locker room before their first game, they raised their hands to tap a piece of white athletic tape placed over the door inscribed âLLJE 11.â Long Live Jordan Edwards.
âThis is for you, J,â one player said.
âNever forget.â
âAlways with us,â added another.
Tears streamed down Vidalâs cheeks as he left the locker room. Later, he carried the American flag as he led the team onto the field at Lake Highlands High School in northeastern Dallas. The sun began to set and the sky turned bright orange. Chants of âGo, Skeeters, Go!â filled the visitorsâ side bleachers. The smell of grilled hot dogs and the rhythm of the bandâs snare drums filled the air.
The Skeeters fell behind early but charged back before halftime, when JaâDarion scored on a two-point conversion. He walked back to the sideline and knelt, saying a prayer.
From the corner of the bleachers, Odell Edwards watched the team fall behind, 20-12.
Hours before kickoff, he had visited his sonâs grave, where he prayed and left a bag of Chesterâs Flaminâ Hot Fries and a bottle of Fuze strawberry lemonade â two of Jordanâs favorites.
âI would always tell him never give up, keep pushing,â he said.
The Skeeters lost, but Charmaine, whoâd joined her husband for the second half, found herself thinking about what Jordan would have done.
âHe would have been upset,â she said. âBut he would have been out there next week, ready to go.â
As the team walked off the field dejected, one player silently tapped the âJEâ on his helmet.
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Credits: Produced by Sean Greene. Video by Jessica Q. Chen, Brian van der Brug and Albert Lee. Lead image: DeWayne Adams, left, and Vidal Allen, Jordan Edwardsâ older brother, stand on the sidelines during practice at Mesquite High School.